Got up again this morning at 4:00 AM - this is suprisingly a lot easier than I thought it would be. Today I ran for 30 minutes - Its so funny one day I love running and the next I am strugglin through it - today was a love running day. I find myself wanting to run more than any other form of exercise. I don't really like doing "workouts" like I did yesterday - where its 8 reps of this, 8 reps of that ... I would rather just run. I'm not sure that just running will get me where I want to be though. Everything I read says you have to do some kind of strength training as well as cardio - but I just don't enjoy the lunges, jumps, squats ... oh my! But with that said I can tell you that I definitely feel the workout I did yesterday - it actually hurts when I take a deep breath ... it kind of feels like someone beat me with a bat today, lol - my legs, ribs, back, shoulders are all very sore - No Pain, No Gain - right?
Peaked at the scale this morning 182.0 - going back in the right direction :). I would be thrilled to see 179 next Tuesday but I am not getting my hopes up ... slow and steady - have to keep telling myself that.
Going to make a trip to our Farmer's Market this weekend - I will try to remember to take pictures. I love going - so much cheaper and so much fresher << is that even a word?? lol ... I really want to try to start eating more whole foods and less processed. That will be something I will have to progress into because thats the way I have eaten my entire life. My mom wasn't big on making us "eat our vegetables" and we never had to clean our plates or any of that good stuff - we ate what we wanted and my mother was/is an amazing cook so she never had problems getting us to eat, but it was never healthy food. Also I have a husband and children who love sweets, chips... pretty much any kind of junk food you can think of - so sometimes its hard for me to buy what they want plus foods that I would like to eat more of. When you are trying to budget and not break the bank at the grocery store sometimes the stuff that is cheapest is the stuff that isn't the most healthy option ... BUT those are all excuses and if I really want to change my life then I am going to have to make drastic changes because what I was doing/eating before obviously wasn't working for me.
I tried on some shorts that I could barely zip last summer and they fit very comfortably now - that made me feel good =) I have a few pair that I still need to lose about another 10 lbs and then I will be in those as well. One of my goals was to be able to wear shorts this summer - in the past I would not wear shorts because I am so worried about how my legs look - same with tank tops, I would NEVER show my arms. I think this summer is going to be different =) ... My birthday is June 27th and I have made a goal to have 20 lbs lost by my bday, I am already at 11 so 9 more pounds in 2 months is very atainable and I might even surpass that - I just want to set realistic small goals to help keep me motivated =)
Have a Great Day!!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
4 AM Workout and Blackout
So I actually got my butt out of bed at 4:00 AM and worked out! It was actually easier than I thought, I was in bed and falling asleep by 9:00 PM - I did find myself waking up several times looking at the clock waiting to see 4:00 to see if I would actually get up or not ... lol
So I got up, went straight down stairs and began my workout, I did a new workout I found on Shape.com that burns 400 calories. Watching the video I was kind of wondering if it truly burned that many calories because the instructor makes it look so effortless but OMG I was huffin' and puffin' and sweatin bullets by the 2nd interval! Here is a link to the Kill Me Now!!! Workout ... I hung in there for most of the moves but almost died in between a few.
So I get done and I go upstairs to take a shower, I am not feeling so good at this point, feel like I'm about to become friends with Mr. Toilet Bowl ... I turn some cool water on and I jump in the shower and thats when it started - my heart was racing, my head was spinning, I really thought I was gonna hurl at this point and then everything started going black - so I sat down in the bathtub and tried to get it together. It took all my strength to stand up and try to get the shampoo out of my hair, then I pretty much fell out of the shower, wrapped a towel around me and just sat there, shaking .... I sat for about 10 minutes then got up and laid in bed for another 15 mins ... The whole time thinking WTF is going on and why is this happening? and how do I fix it?! Was it because I didn't eat anything? Can my body just not handle this in the morning? What is going on?! I work out at night and never have this issue ... It freaked me out!
I am at work now and feeling better but still a little shaky - I had my oatmeal and banana so I am hoping that helps. Have you ever had this happen?? What do you think could cause this?
So I got up, went straight down stairs and began my workout, I did a new workout I found on Shape.com that burns 400 calories. Watching the video I was kind of wondering if it truly burned that many calories because the instructor makes it look so effortless but OMG I was huffin' and puffin' and sweatin bullets by the 2nd interval! Here is a link to the Kill Me Now!!! Workout ... I hung in there for most of the moves but almost died in between a few.
So I get done and I go upstairs to take a shower, I am not feeling so good at this point, feel like I'm about to become friends with Mr. Toilet Bowl ... I turn some cool water on and I jump in the shower and thats when it started - my heart was racing, my head was spinning, I really thought I was gonna hurl at this point and then everything started going black - so I sat down in the bathtub and tried to get it together. It took all my strength to stand up and try to get the shampoo out of my hair, then I pretty much fell out of the shower, wrapped a towel around me and just sat there, shaking .... I sat for about 10 minutes then got up and laid in bed for another 15 mins ... The whole time thinking WTF is going on and why is this happening? and how do I fix it?! Was it because I didn't eat anything? Can my body just not handle this in the morning? What is going on?! I work out at night and never have this issue ... It freaked me out!
I am at work now and feeling better but still a little shaky - I had my oatmeal and banana so I am hoping that helps. Have you ever had this happen?? What do you think could cause this?
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Weigh In and some reflections ....
Today was weigh in day – nothing to get excited about, I stayed the same – no gain/no loss … I can’t say I am surprised after the way I “snacked” all weekend.
I have noticed that I really, really, really need to start being more accountable with what I am eating. I am making smart choices for most of my meals but then I am taking bites while I am getting the kids food on their plates, or eating what they left or adding just a “little bit” of cheese to something and not counting any of it…. I need to be more accountable! At least until I get to my goal weight I need to keep track of every crumb that I eat.
I am also contemplating getting up early and exercising – unfortunately I have about a 45 minute commute to work and I also have to drop my kids off at my mom’s on the way to work. I have to be at work by 7:00 am so I leave my house no later than 6:00 am – sooooo I would have to get up around 4:00 AM to exercise. I am so not a morning person but if I exercised in the morning then I would have my evenings to just relax with my boys and enjoy time with them. They go to bed at 8:00 pm so if I played my cards right I could be in bed falling asleep by 9:00 pm … I know people do this all the time so why couldn’t I?? and I wouldn’t have to do this on the weekends so it would only be during the week … I could do this, right??? lol
I did have an awesome NSV (non scale victory) last night. On the way home from work the husband called and said he didn’t feel like dealing with dinner or the mess from dinner (he doesn’t work on Mondays) and he wanted me to pick something up. He ended up picking Penn Station – I completely forgot that any sandwich they have you can make into a salad and the guy at the counter was rushing me like he had a date or something … so I ended up just picking a sandwich that wasn’t smothered in cheese. I got home and looked up the calories, for The Club – a small one was something like 638 calories and 32 g of Fat … I had taken one bite – after I saw that I wrapped it up and told the husband he had lunch for tomorrow. I made myself a Boca chicken patty on wheat bread w/ ½ C turkey chili left from this weekend. I felt much better about that decision. The old me would have not just eaten a small I would have had a large sandwich and probably fries too. OMG just thinking about the amount of calories I was eating gives me a heart attack! Yay me for not giving into temptation because that sandwich did taste amazing…8)
I am starting to get a love/hate relationship with running – I had an awesome run last night but it took everything I had and I mean everything at the very end I thought my legs were literally going to fall off – still not 3 miles, but a little over 2.5 … I really wanted to hang in there but I just couldn’t. I have so much more respect for people who run marathons! How they do it, I do not know! I just take comfort in knowing I have come so far I am running non-stop for 2.5 miles this is a huge accomplishment for me and I have to keep reminding myself that. With that said, I feel like I’ve hit a wall with running, I feel like I should be getting stronger and I actually feel the opposite – I feel like it is taking every ounce of energy I have to run for 25 minutes, and I am not going that fast either I start at 5.5 and usually end at 5.0 … I know I need to just be patient with this too but sometimes that is easier said than done. I feel on top of the world when I am done and drenched with sweat – I feel like I accomplished something but during my run I want to blow that treadmill up and never look at it again =) … I also really want to try running outside, unfortunately I live in a subdivision with no streets and hills that would make sledding a death trap … so I will have to find another place to run. I just think that sometimes on the treadmill I am constantly looking at the time and distance and its kind of like watching a pot of water waiting for it to boil.
This is all a learning experience and I am learning and getting better each day!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Winter didn't get the memo ...
So the first day of SPRING was March 20th but apparently Winter didn't get the memo because we got about 4 inches of snow on Saturday. It was very pretty but I am ready for spring. Most of it is already melted but we aren't supposed to get over 50 degress all week.
So how was your weekend? Mine was pretty good - I didn't get a whole lot done but I had a lot of family time with the husband and my boys and that is better than pretty much anything else :) ... Friday we had our friends over, we went out to mexican - I didn't do too bad, shared fajitas with the husband, I did eat 2 tortillas but I ate very light during the day because I knew we were going out.
Saturday I took my son to his swimming lessons - he is getting so much more brave now and even volunteering to go first for some things - he is too funny. Then we came home watched the snow fall while I made a meal plan for the week and got a grocery list together. By the time we went to Target and the grocery store it was 8:00 - We watched Inception and I some how managed to keep my eyes open long enough to make it through - have to say it was a pretty cool movie!
Sunday was another lazy day! The husband and I watched documentaries all day on Netflix. And I snacked allllllll day! grrrr ... Everytime we were done with a documentary I would get up and get a different snack ... lazy days are good to relax but I always end up eating more than I would like. I did manage to get to the treadmill before I went to bed - I did not get my 3 miles I was hoping for ... I thought I would be charged and ready to go with the 2 days off running but I struggled through it and only managed 2 miles. Thats ok, I will get there and it will be soon!
I need to really start working on my weekends. I do great during the week planning my meals and counting my calories then the weekend comes and I just get lazy. This is going to be a new priority for me - work hard EVEN on the weekends!
Tomorrow is weigh in day - wish me luck!!!
So how was your weekend? Mine was pretty good - I didn't get a whole lot done but I had a lot of family time with the husband and my boys and that is better than pretty much anything else :) ... Friday we had our friends over, we went out to mexican - I didn't do too bad, shared fajitas with the husband, I did eat 2 tortillas but I ate very light during the day because I knew we were going out.
Saturday I took my son to his swimming lessons - he is getting so much more brave now and even volunteering to go first for some things - he is too funny. Then we came home watched the snow fall while I made a meal plan for the week and got a grocery list together. By the time we went to Target and the grocery store it was 8:00 - We watched Inception and I some how managed to keep my eyes open long enough to make it through - have to say it was a pretty cool movie!
Sunday was another lazy day! The husband and I watched documentaries all day on Netflix. And I snacked allllllll day! grrrr ... Everytime we were done with a documentary I would get up and get a different snack ... lazy days are good to relax but I always end up eating more than I would like. I did manage to get to the treadmill before I went to bed - I did not get my 3 miles I was hoping for ... I thought I would be charged and ready to go with the 2 days off running but I struggled through it and only managed 2 miles. Thats ok, I will get there and it will be soon!
I need to really start working on my weekends. I do great during the week planning my meals and counting my calories then the weekend comes and I just get lazy. This is going to be a new priority for me - work hard EVEN on the weekends!
Tomorrow is weigh in day - wish me luck!!!
Friday, March 25, 2011
I KNOW I can, I KNOW I can!
Ok, first things first, Mother Nature you are soooo not cool today! ... We had temperatures in the 80's on Monday with sun and it was glorious! Today I wake up to friggin SNOW and SLEET!! Yuck! I am over it, winter be gone! They are calling for more snow on Sunday - 2-4" ... seriously?? ... Oh well, this will all be over soon and then we'll all be complaining about how hot it is =)
So the point of the post title - I am going to run 3 miles at once this weekend, I am bound and determined! I always get to 2.5 miles and I just think I can't go any more and I stop well I am claiming it right now that by the end of this weekend I will run 3 miles! I am not worried about the time right now, I just want to get the distance! I am going to do it! I actually don't think i can, i know i can!! ...
This weekend is going to be pretty stress free and should be nice and quiet. We are having some friends over tonight to visit and then the rest of the weekend is wide open! We are hopefully going to get started on our son's new swingset - he got it last year for his birthday but his bday is the end of august and by the time we ordered it and it was delivered it was the end of september and it was starting to get cool so we decided to wait until this spring to put it up. As you can see our weather doesn't always cooperate with us so we are going to start assembling it in the garage until we run out of room - this thing is massive and the direction manual literally makes me want to run away and cry!! ... I wish I had some moolah so I could pay someone else to do this - its gonna take FOREVER!! ... lol but at least I know my kids will love it, so that makes it worth it.
Here is the one we got him - this thing is literally in a million pieces ... most reviews said it takes at least 2 days to put together ... shouldn't this be a guy only thing??? ha ha ha!
So the point of the post title - I am going to run 3 miles at once this weekend, I am bound and determined! I always get to 2.5 miles and I just think I can't go any more and I stop well I am claiming it right now that by the end of this weekend I will run 3 miles! I am not worried about the time right now, I just want to get the distance! I am going to do it! I actually don't think i can, i know i can!! ...
This weekend is going to be pretty stress free and should be nice and quiet. We are having some friends over tonight to visit and then the rest of the weekend is wide open! We are hopefully going to get started on our son's new swingset - he got it last year for his birthday but his bday is the end of august and by the time we ordered it and it was delivered it was the end of september and it was starting to get cool so we decided to wait until this spring to put it up. As you can see our weather doesn't always cooperate with us so we are going to start assembling it in the garage until we run out of room - this thing is massive and the direction manual literally makes me want to run away and cry!! ... I wish I had some moolah so I could pay someone else to do this - its gonna take FOREVER!! ... lol but at least I know my kids will love it, so that makes it worth it.
Here is the one we got him - this thing is literally in a million pieces ... most reviews said it takes at least 2 days to put together ... shouldn't this be a guy only thing??? ha ha ha!
Alright, well wish me luck on the running and putting together that beast!! =) I will post pics of the finished project when its done - next month - ha ha ha!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Steak, Muscles & Oatmeal =)
Not much to blog about today ... It's a beautiful day out, high of 70 and sunny but then it gets ugly tonight. Supposed to get down to 32 overnight and then a high of 45 for the next 7 days ... YUCK!! I have been loving this spring weather! We have had all the windows open and our attic fan going, pure heaven if you ask me! ...
We are going to take advantage of this nice day and bbq some steaks for dinner tonight. My 4 year old will be extremely happy - he is a meat eater! Kid LOVES steak, bacon, sausage, any kind of lunch meat ... no worries about him getting all his protein in =) ... Unfortunately veggies are another story - he used to love them as a baby and now we have to bribe him, with bacon, to get him to eat them, ha ha ha ... I will tell him broccoli gives him big muscles and then he will take a bite and go look mom! Love it!
Well have a great rest of the day and enjoy it more if you're lucky to have spring like weather like we are having here!!
We are going to take advantage of this nice day and bbq some steaks for dinner tonight. My 4 year old will be extremely happy - he is a meat eater! Kid LOVES steak, bacon, sausage, any kind of lunch meat ... no worries about him getting all his protein in =) ... Unfortunately veggies are another story - he used to love them as a baby and now we have to bribe him, with bacon, to get him to eat them, ha ha ha ... I will tell him broccoli gives him big muscles and then he will take a bite and go look mom! Love it!
Ahhh to be a kid again!
Well I peeked at the scale again today - I really need to stop doing this, lol! Luckily it said 182.5 so that is officially an 11 lbs loss ... but knowing me I will wake up tomorrow and have a gain and get upset - I always fluctuate! Especially since I know TOM is right around the corner ... bah!
Have you tried McDonalds Oatmeal? I recently got a ton of coupons for free oatmeal that expire on the 27th so I have been using them a lot - it is 290 calories if you get it with the brown sugar and I think its 260 without - to me the 30 calories are worth it! I was so shocked at how good this stuff is ... I LOVE IT!! I really want to find a fruit mix similar to what they use to add to my own oatmeal, I know I could shave off some calories if I made it myself. If you haven't tried it, you should - so good!
Heaven in a cup!
Well have a great rest of the day and enjoy it more if you're lucky to have spring like weather like we are having here!!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Weigh In Day - First Goal Reached!!
Today was weigh in day and I am happy to report I have officially lost ...
YAY!!! I am so happy! 5 weeks and 10 lbs - so roughly 2 lbs per week =) I am finally doing this the right way ... it is coming off slow but it is staying off and I feel great!!
Who knew that if you simply just did this ...
You would lose weight?!?! Imagine that =) ... No more fad diets, pills, or quick fixes for me! This is a lifestyle change! I feel awesome and can't wait to see more success in the weeks to come.
I had an awesome run last night - I am sooo close to running 3 miles without stopping, it will come I just have to be patient.
I have also decided I want to try to incorporate some strength training in addition to my running. I want to try to tone up as I lose the weight so I am not left with any stretched out skin. Plus I have read that strength training paired with cardio is the best way to lose fat. Muscle burns calories. So I will start with my 10 lb weights and then when that gets too easy I will buy heavier ones.
I am so happy, I started this journey at 193.5 and weighed in today at 183. I can't even imagine that I am about to enter the 170's ... I haven't weighed under 180 since I graduated college 10 years ago... I have rested in the 180's .... but not any more baby... I can't wait!
Have a great day!!!!!
Who knew that if you simply just did this ...
You would lose weight?!?! Imagine that =) ... No more fad diets, pills, or quick fixes for me! This is a lifestyle change! I feel awesome and can't wait to see more success in the weeks to come.
I had an awesome run last night - I am sooo close to running 3 miles without stopping, it will come I just have to be patient.
I have also decided I want to try to incorporate some strength training in addition to my running. I want to try to tone up as I lose the weight so I am not left with any stretched out skin. Plus I have read that strength training paired with cardio is the best way to lose fat. Muscle burns calories. So I will start with my 10 lb weights and then when that gets too easy I will buy heavier ones.
I am so happy, I started this journey at 193.5 and weighed in today at 183. I can't even imagine that I am about to enter the 170's ... I haven't weighed under 180 since I graduated college 10 years ago... I have rested in the 180's .... but not any more baby... I can't wait!
Have a great day!!!!!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Weight Loss is only Half the Battle ...
So I have been thinking today - and as I posted yesterday I had a girls night out this weekend and just like typical females the conversation shifted to weight loss on more than one occasion. So one of the "ladies" was talking about trying to lose weight as she does frequently - it seems to be something she is constantly thinking about as every time I talk to her she is trying a different weight loss program. This time it was a Special K diet ... last time it was some kind of smaller meal diet. Anyways my point to all of this is she looks fabulous the way she is - or at least I think so. She has had 3 children and she is "thin enough" in my eyes. I would love to be her size. So I got to thinking - after losing this weight and getting to my goal, am I still going to be unhappy??
Then it hit me ...
You have to ..
And this is ...
Even woman who look like this still think this way...
I am not defined by the number on the scale. I am still me no matter what my weight is. I am still important even if I am not a size 2. After talking to this other lady I realized that even people who are thin/fit/not fat still have body issues and still are not happy with themselves. I used to have the mindset that if I just lost a certain amount of weight it would change everything. I would instantly have crazy self confidence and everyone would like me better if I was nicer to look at. How ridiculous is that?!?! ... I have to love who I am now because I am still worth it. Dropping a few pounds is not going to change my worth. I have to live my life now at whatever size I am or I could miss out on a lot.
Saturday night I went out and I was so happy. I didn't care what other people were thinking about me, all I cared about was having a good time. I laughed, I talked to strangers I even got out on the dance floor and shook my groove thang =) ... and I had the time of my life. Before I would have sat at a table watching everyone else have the time of their life. I haven't lost a significant amount of weight yet or made a huge transformation but I have had an awakening - I have decided to live, no matter what my weight is.
So instead of trying to look like someone on a tv show, or a friend that I wish I was "as skinny as", I have chosen to love the body I am in and love me!
Then it hit me ...
I am not defined by the number on the scale. I am still me no matter what my weight is. I am still important even if I am not a size 2. After talking to this other lady I realized that even people who are thin/fit/not fat still have body issues and still are not happy with themselves. I used to have the mindset that if I just lost a certain amount of weight it would change everything. I would instantly have crazy self confidence and everyone would like me better if I was nicer to look at. How ridiculous is that?!?! ... I have to love who I am now because I am still worth it. Dropping a few pounds is not going to change my worth. I have to live my life now at whatever size I am or I could miss out on a lot.
Saturday night I went out and I was so happy. I didn't care what other people were thinking about me, all I cared about was having a good time. I laughed, I talked to strangers I even got out on the dance floor and shook my groove thang =) ... and I had the time of my life. Before I would have sat at a table watching everyone else have the time of their life. I haven't lost a significant amount of weight yet or made a huge transformation but I have had an awakening - I have decided to live, no matter what my weight is.
So instead of trying to look like someone on a tv show, or a friend that I wish I was "as skinny as", I have chosen to love the body I am in and love me!
So stop living you're life waiting for weight loss to change who you are. You are awesome just the way you are and anyone who thinks differently isn't worth your time anyways! Love yourself today and everything elsw will fall into place!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Where did the weekend go???
Friday was a low key evening - my oldest stayed the night at his cousins house - bbq'd and watched a movie with the husband. Then I some how scraped up the motiviation to get on the treadmill to run and it was one of my longest runs yet ... 4K - so close to a 5K I can taste it!
Saturday was a busy day - swimming lessons, bowling bday party and then I went out for a girl's night. I had SOOOOO much fun and it was long overdue - i think I probably burned a ton of calories on the dance floor =) ...didn't get home until 4:00 AM - there was some late night tacobell thrown in there however ... but every once in a blue moon is ok ... Needless to say today was a stay in my pajamas kind of day ... slept till 10 - woke up ate breakfast and went back to sleep unitl 2:00 ... Its too bad because today was BEAUTIFUL day ... but again I had a blast and thats all that counts! I did make it to the treadmill tonight, wasn't the greatest run but I did it so I'm happy with that.
So here is to another week of tracking, running and hopefully losing - I want that 10 lb mark this week!!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Fluctuation = Aggravation
First off, it's Friday - so a big YAY for that! ...
Otherwise the scale is driving me crazy!!! This is how I feel most days ...
You would think I would learn after 5 weeks of doing this that weighing myself everyday is just not a good idea - EVERY single week my weight fluctuates so much but somehow by the time weigh in day (Tuesdays) rolls around I end up with some kind of a loss ... its like my body needs at least a week to adjust. So why can't I keep myself off the scale for one week at a time? Because I am afraid! I am afraid if I don't see that fluctuation and see my weight creep up a little I might not work as hard. Honestly when I see the number go up even just half a pound I find myself pushing harder on the treadmill, drinking a little more water, trying to keep the calories down as much as possible.... so my advice to myself is treat EVERYDAY like I saw a jump in the scale and stay off the dang thing until weigh in day!!! ... it is a total mood killer when I kill it on the treadmill the night before and drink crazy water the day before and then I get on the scale and see a gain ... but then i can get on the next day and i'm down 2 or 3 lbs .... Patience grasshopper, patience!
Now this is where I wish I had some readers so I could ask some advice ... I know this will come too, but just incase there is someone reading I am going to ask anyways ... LOL ... Its about calories, I have done pretty much every calorie calculator on the web and I get very different answers so I have no clue what is right ... As of this week I have been trying to stay between 1300 and 1400 calories and I don't think I have hit 1400 all week - I also am burning 400 - 500 calories each night. Is this enough? Am I doing enough?? Am I not eating enough?? I am so confused on this and if I could just get it straightened out I would feel so much better about this process ... I am currently 184.5 and would like to be 140-145 for my goal, then after I hit that we will see what happens, but I would be thrilled with that weight. So if you have ANY advice I would love to hear it!!
Well, have a great weekend!! We are supposed to have a rainy one so maybe I will get some house work done =) ... Going out Saturday night for a girls night out, can't wait!!
Otherwise the scale is driving me crazy!!! This is how I feel most days ...
You would think I would learn after 5 weeks of doing this that weighing myself everyday is just not a good idea - EVERY single week my weight fluctuates so much but somehow by the time weigh in day (Tuesdays) rolls around I end up with some kind of a loss ... its like my body needs at least a week to adjust. So why can't I keep myself off the scale for one week at a time? Because I am afraid! I am afraid if I don't see that fluctuation and see my weight creep up a little I might not work as hard. Honestly when I see the number go up even just half a pound I find myself pushing harder on the treadmill, drinking a little more water, trying to keep the calories down as much as possible.... so my advice to myself is treat EVERYDAY like I saw a jump in the scale and stay off the dang thing until weigh in day!!! ... it is a total mood killer when I kill it on the treadmill the night before and drink crazy water the day before and then I get on the scale and see a gain ... but then i can get on the next day and i'm down 2 or 3 lbs .... Patience grasshopper, patience!
Now this is where I wish I had some readers so I could ask some advice ... I know this will come too, but just incase there is someone reading I am going to ask anyways ... LOL ... Its about calories, I have done pretty much every calorie calculator on the web and I get very different answers so I have no clue what is right ... As of this week I have been trying to stay between 1300 and 1400 calories and I don't think I have hit 1400 all week - I also am burning 400 - 500 calories each night. Is this enough? Am I doing enough?? Am I not eating enough?? I am so confused on this and if I could just get it straightened out I would feel so much better about this process ... I am currently 184.5 and would like to be 140-145 for my goal, then after I hit that we will see what happens, but I would be thrilled with that weight. So if you have ANY advice I would love to hear it!!
Well, have a great weekend!! We are supposed to have a rainy one so maybe I will get some house work done =) ... Going out Saturday night for a girls night out, can't wait!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
To run or not to run ....
Ok, so I have been "running" and I use that term lightly for about a month now and I can run for about 2 miles straight before I am ready to pass out and only at a 5.0 mph pace ... I am trying to increase both my time and speed and I will do little intervals of 6.0 in there but still only make it 2 miles.
Anyways I say all this to say that I really want to attempt running a 5K - It would be a HUGE accomplishment for me and I think it would also give me some running confidence - if that makes any sense. It is also another stepping stone on my mission to getting healthy.
I have started to really enjoy running and really would like to improve my distance and speed. It is a work in progress ... I keep saying when I get to where I want to be speed/time wise I will sign up for a 5K because heaven forbid I run and get a bad time ... I wonder why I let this bother me. I have seen people a lot bigger than I am take on this race and do great and I am definitely not running to win the race, I am running to prove to myself that I can be a runner, that I can run to be healthy and it is NOT out of my reach...
Anyways I say all this to say that I really want to attempt running a 5K - It would be a HUGE accomplishment for me and I think it would also give me some running confidence - if that makes any sense. It is also another stepping stone on my mission to getting healthy.
I have started to really enjoy running and really would like to improve my distance and speed. It is a work in progress ... I keep saying when I get to where I want to be speed/time wise I will sign up for a 5K because heaven forbid I run and get a bad time ... I wonder why I let this bother me. I have seen people a lot bigger than I am take on this race and do great and I am definitely not running to win the race, I am running to prove to myself that I can be a runner, that I can run to be healthy and it is NOT out of my reach...
Everytime I see this number and letter, I get nervous.....
Why do I let it get to me so badly??? ... Its time to put on my big girl panties and just do it!!
I think I am just going to do it, take the plunge and not worry if I don't get the best time - honestly I think I will do fine and its mainly in my head and actually making a running commitment is what is scaring me. Because then I can't slack on the running if I want to because I have a commitment - isn't that sad??? I am afraid to do this because I am afraid I am going to fail. I can not live my life like this, I have to try ... Thank you PriorFatGuy for your inspiration! You didn't think you were ready for it but you still did it and you did awesome - you crossed that finish line!!
Today I was going through some old pictures and I found this one of me at my college graduation.. I was about 40 lbs lighter than and even then I thought I was too big and was taking appetite supressants trying to lose a few lbs... seems crazy to me now because I would LOVE to be this weight, this is my goal weight! Why are we never happy with what we have?? I need to be happy in this body, the one I am in right now before I can better myself - because weight is just a number, I am still me even with an extra 40 lbs and I am pretty freakin' awesome. =) .. (I am on the left)
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Weigh In - Slow & Steady Wins The Race!
So today was a weigh-in day and what kind of weigh in was it ... something like this:
Yay for happy scale face! =) ... Last week I was at 186.5 this week ... 184.5 ... YAY!! 2 lb loss, I will take it! I know this weight isn't necessarily flying off but it is coming off and thats all that matters. Everything I have ever read says a 1-2 lb loss per week is best and a slower loss usually results in the weight staying off! ... So I am happy with this progress ... and I am sticking with it. Nothing can stop me now =)
I hope you have a great day - it is rainy and dreary here today but tomorrow its supposed to be sunny and 65 and thursday even better with sun and 70! - Thats what I'm talking about, I am so ready for warmer weather!! We are going to start putting the swing set up this weekend so that should be fun - I know my little guys are going to love it - so that makes me happy =)
Have a great day!!
Yay for happy scale face! =) ... Last week I was at 186.5 this week ... 184.5 ... YAY!! 2 lb loss, I will take it! I know this weight isn't necessarily flying off but it is coming off and thats all that matters. Everything I have ever read says a 1-2 lb loss per week is best and a slower loss usually results in the weight staying off! ... So I am happy with this progress ... and I am sticking with it. Nothing can stop me now =)
I hope you have a great day - it is rainy and dreary here today but tomorrow its supposed to be sunny and 65 and thursday even better with sun and 70! - Thats what I'm talking about, I am so ready for warmer weather!! We are going to start putting the swing set up this weekend so that should be fun - I know my little guys are going to love it - so that makes me happy =)
Have a great day!!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Run baby run!!
Just got done running - while I'm not quite at 5K shape, I am slowly getting there. I feel so great after running, definitely feel the "runner's high" ... during I kinda feel like this
I have my breakfast ready to go:
My lunch:
And two yummy snacks incase I get hungry in between
So I can go to bed and feel like I have had a great day and that I am prepared for another one tomorrow! yay =)
I hope your day was great too!
But then when I am done I feel like this:
My lunch:
And two yummy snacks incase I get hungry in between
So I can go to bed and feel like I have had a great day and that I am prepared for another one tomorrow! yay =)
I hope your day was great too!
Wonderful Weekend =)
Hello! So this was a great weekend - got a lot done and even had a little bit of relaxing in there - can't beat that! Started Friday night off with just me and the little guys - Dad had a man date with some guys from work, dinner and a movie =) One of those blowin' things up, aliens, end of the world - so not my kind of movie, movies - glad he found someone else to watch it with!! lol ... So me and the boys just relaxed and I even snuck a nice run in there on the treadmill.
Saturday - we woke up super early and headed to the Farmer's Market - i LOVE going there, love the atmosphere and all the beautiful fresh produce ... here's where i get very mad, lol - i took tons of great pictures of all the sweet deals and amazing fruit i got - my house is overflowing with fruit and veggies - LOVE THAT! ... Well anyways, I used my phone to take the pics and its an old school phone, it has a chip in it that you have to take out and put in your computer and blah blah blah - anyways it wouldn't work, I even had my computer nerd husband mess with it and he couldn't get it work either ... so disappointing!! I just tried this last night or else I would have just taken pics with my regular camera - which I will have to do from now on - unfortunately its one of those bulky ones so I can't just throw it in my purse, that is why I was hoping I would be able to use my phone when I was out and about ... oh well! I promise I will get pics on here, now that I know my phone doesn't work I will get the big clunky digital out =)
We took the big guy to swimming lesson's on Saturday and he completely broke down and cried like crazy said that he was scared and didn't want to do it. We were shocked, he has swam before but I think the little girl next to him crying her eyes out after they made her jump in freaked him out a bit, he was fine up until that point - he has never had a traumatizing experience or anything like that ... so who knows. We are still going to take him and keep taking him until he is ok with the water - it is really important to me that my kids know how to swim. I lost an aunt due to her drowning and I never want to have to experience that again.
We also bought a new gas grill on Saturday - SO HAPPY about this purchase, I have been dying without one - our's shot craps last year and we have been using our old Weber Charcoal - and while it works just fine I am a lazy cooker and love when I can just walk out and start that baby up and not have to deal with all the mess of charcoal ... made some WONDERFUL kabobs last night with turkey sausage and chicken with mushrooms, green pepper and red onion - deliciouoso!! =)
Sunday was a lazy day and I loved every minute of it - we are constantly running on the weekends to bday parties, get togethers or different various events so when we get a free day on the weekend it is pure bliss! I still got a run in though =) .. can't forget that!
Today I woke up to crazy HUGE snowflakes! I couldn't believe it - especially after the beautiful weekend we had - and its supposed to be 70 degrees on Thursday!! ... crazy, crazy! My 4 year old says - Uhhhh Mom, I thought you said it wouldn't be snowing any more!! - He is eager to get up his swingset we bought last fall and didn't get a chance to put up before it got cold =) So he is hoping for more of those 70 degree days!
I am making spaghetti squash for dinner tonight - I will let you know how it turned out =)
Saturday - we woke up super early and headed to the Farmer's Market - i LOVE going there, love the atmosphere and all the beautiful fresh produce ... here's where i get very mad, lol - i took tons of great pictures of all the sweet deals and amazing fruit i got - my house is overflowing with fruit and veggies - LOVE THAT! ... Well anyways, I used my phone to take the pics and its an old school phone, it has a chip in it that you have to take out and put in your computer and blah blah blah - anyways it wouldn't work, I even had my computer nerd husband mess with it and he couldn't get it work either ... so disappointing!! I just tried this last night or else I would have just taken pics with my regular camera - which I will have to do from now on - unfortunately its one of those bulky ones so I can't just throw it in my purse, that is why I was hoping I would be able to use my phone when I was out and about ... oh well! I promise I will get pics on here, now that I know my phone doesn't work I will get the big clunky digital out =)
We took the big guy to swimming lesson's on Saturday and he completely broke down and cried like crazy said that he was scared and didn't want to do it. We were shocked, he has swam before but I think the little girl next to him crying her eyes out after they made her jump in freaked him out a bit, he was fine up until that point - he has never had a traumatizing experience or anything like that ... so who knows. We are still going to take him and keep taking him until he is ok with the water - it is really important to me that my kids know how to swim. I lost an aunt due to her drowning and I never want to have to experience that again.
We also bought a new gas grill on Saturday - SO HAPPY about this purchase, I have been dying without one - our's shot craps last year and we have been using our old Weber Charcoal - and while it works just fine I am a lazy cooker and love when I can just walk out and start that baby up and not have to deal with all the mess of charcoal ... made some WONDERFUL kabobs last night with turkey sausage and chicken with mushrooms, green pepper and red onion - deliciouoso!! =)
Sunday was a lazy day and I loved every minute of it - we are constantly running on the weekends to bday parties, get togethers or different various events so when we get a free day on the weekend it is pure bliss! I still got a run in though =) .. can't forget that!
Today I woke up to crazy HUGE snowflakes! I couldn't believe it - especially after the beautiful weekend we had - and its supposed to be 70 degrees on Thursday!! ... crazy, crazy! My 4 year old says - Uhhhh Mom, I thought you said it wouldn't be snowing any more!! - He is eager to get up his swingset we bought last fall and didn't get a chance to put up before it got cold =) So he is hoping for more of those 70 degree days!
I am making spaghetti squash for dinner tonight - I will let you know how it turned out =)
Friday, March 11, 2011
Its Fridayyyyyyy!! Woot Woot!
Love Fridays!! Saturday are even better but Friday makes me do this:
I am feeling good today - had a great workout last night with my EA Active on the Kinect - kicked my butt and had me sweatin' big time! ... I am really starting to crave exercise. I found myself with a little time after dinner to kind of wind down and didn't have anything that NEEDED to get done - I mean there is always something to do around the house - and all I wanted to do was get my workout gear on and start burnin' some calories! ... I love it and I can tell my endurance is getting stronger the more I exercise - last night there was definitely a few times I wanted to just call it quits but I picked myself back up and got back at it and I finished the complete workout - go me! =)
This weekend is going to be a laid back weekend - My oldest starts swimming lessons on Saturday so we are all excited about that. We are going to try to sign both of them up for as much as we can - keep them busy and not sitting in front of the tv!My oldest LOVES watching movies, he just loves it and he would do it all day if we let him. Fortunately he also LOVES being outside and he would also stay out all day if we let him (thank God). I do not want him to turn into a couch potato!! So now we are doing swimming and hopefully will be doing soccer too in the near future. Yay! Can't wait to be a soccer mom =)
So I had a non-scale victory this week - they are having a big meeting at work today and yesterday as well and they always bring in TONS of junk food for this ... came into work yesterday and my work kitchen pretty much looked something like this (these are not actual pictures from my work, but you get the idea):
I am feeling good today - had a great workout last night with my EA Active on the Kinect - kicked my butt and had me sweatin' big time! ... I am really starting to crave exercise. I found myself with a little time after dinner to kind of wind down and didn't have anything that NEEDED to get done - I mean there is always something to do around the house - and all I wanted to do was get my workout gear on and start burnin' some calories! ... I love it and I can tell my endurance is getting stronger the more I exercise - last night there was definitely a few times I wanted to just call it quits but I picked myself back up and got back at it and I finished the complete workout - go me! =)
This weekend is going to be a laid back weekend - My oldest starts swimming lessons on Saturday so we are all excited about that. We are going to try to sign both of them up for as much as we can - keep them busy and not sitting in front of the tv!My oldest LOVES watching movies, he just loves it and he would do it all day if we let him. Fortunately he also LOVES being outside and he would also stay out all day if we let him (thank God). I do not want him to turn into a couch potato!! So now we are doing swimming and hopefully will be doing soccer too in the near future. Yay! Can't wait to be a soccer mom =)
So I had a non-scale victory this week - they are having a big meeting at work today and yesterday as well and they always bring in TONS of junk food for this ... came into work yesterday and my work kitchen pretty much looked something like this (these are not actual pictures from my work, but you get the idea):
So that is what I was looking at all day yesterdy and there is more today! And I didn't touch any of it! YAY!!! ... a month ago I would have been scarfing this all down as fast as I could ... but I didn't touch one thing! I ate my oatmeal for breakfast and I ate the HEALTHY lunch that I brought - I can do this! I will win this fight! and I am proving that to myself more and more everyday!
Now weekends are a trial for me but not this weekend! I am going to continue to track, continue to exercise and I am GOING TO DO THIS!
Yay! Have a great day and a great weekend!!!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
I don't get it ...
I would really like one of these!!! lol - wouldn't we all!
The other problems I am having is - drinking water, I hate water! I have to force myself to drink it. The other is taking bites here and there constantly! I have 2 boys and anytime I make them something I find myself mindlessly taking a bite of this and that, and then when they don't finish something I instinctively want to eat it instead of letting food go to waste... Or when I get home from work and I am really hungry and have to wait for dinner to cook I will take a bite of something to satisfy the hunger ... Then on the weekends for some reason I just don't track - we tend to go out to eat on the weekends and if we go somewhere that nutrition info isn't available, i try to make a good choice but if i don't know the calories its hard to track for the rest of the day so then I just stop tracking and try not to eat any more ...
So anyways! I am just getting a little frustrated with the lack of results but I also realize that I need to take the food logging a bit more seriously and just keep up with my exercise as much as possible.
It will happen! I know it will! Because I am not giving up =)
Who am I?
Well I am pretty sure I don't have any readers yet and honestly I kind of like the idea that this is kind of like a journal for me - I really want to document this journey and reflect back when I am at goal and see how far I have come. I love going through blogs of people who have had success and see what they were going through in the beginning of their journey - like where I am now - lets me see what helped them to get to where they are now ... Anyways, I thought I would make a post saying a few facts about me so once I do get readers they can see who they are reading about =) So here goes ...
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My name is Samantha, my mother wanted to name me Sarah - my dad on the other hand had a thing for Samantha on Bewitched and said that was going to be my name =) .. Glad he won, I love my name!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Honestly don't remember - it wasn't too long ago, but don't remember why ..
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
ehh - some days I do, somedays I don't =)
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Oven Roasted Chicken
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Yes, two boys =)
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Sure, I am very easy to get a long with and I am a people pleaser, lol
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
Pretty much
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Not likely ...
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
If I could have any cereal without worrying about calories it would be Cinamon Toast Crunch!
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes I do
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
There is no other icecream other than just Plain Chocolate.. yummo!
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their attitude
15. RED OR PINK?
Red - HATE pink!
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Being so stinkin' insecure - always thinking i'm not good enough
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My Aunt Rita - she was awesome ... and My Grandpa, he was a character =)
18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST? what is the what???
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Black boots
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Chex Mix Choc Chunk Bar 120 calories! lol
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The radio and office chatter ..
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Navy Blue =)
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Shampoo - love it! I'm a freak, i know!
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
A Customer - i'm working =)
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Beach House!!!! Gotta get my tan on =)
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Baseball - but only if i'm at the actual game, on tv its boring!!
27. HAIR COLOR? Dark Brown
28. EYE COLOR? BROWN
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes I do!
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Fajitas
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings - scary movies now days are too gory for me!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Grown Ups - on Netflix
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Tan Argile (sp??) sweater
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer - but Fall is my favorite!
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Depends on who is handing them out =) lol
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Fresh baked chocolate chip cookie
37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
Cardio - I am lovin' the running
38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer!
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Don't read much ...
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A Dell logo
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
My kids laughing :)
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Before my time!!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Cancun
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
ummmmm not that i can think of ...
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
In a hospital??..
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
In a house with my husband and my boys - my favorite place to be!
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE? Tan siding
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Black
50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
Its ok ... but these questions were kind of lame =)
And here is a somewhat current pic of me so you can see who you are reading about =)
So that is a little bit about me!
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My name is Samantha, my mother wanted to name me Sarah - my dad on the other hand had a thing for Samantha on Bewitched and said that was going to be my name =) .. Glad he won, I love my name!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Honestly don't remember - it wasn't too long ago, but don't remember why ..
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
ehh - some days I do, somedays I don't =)
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Oven Roasted Chicken
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Yes, two boys =)
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Sure, I am very easy to get a long with and I am a people pleaser, lol
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?
Pretty much
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Not likely ...
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
If I could have any cereal without worrying about calories it would be Cinamon Toast Crunch!
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? Yes I do
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
There is no other icecream other than just Plain Chocolate.. yummo!
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their attitude
15. RED OR PINK?
Red - HATE pink!
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Being so stinkin' insecure - always thinking i'm not good enough
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My Aunt Rita - she was awesome ... and My Grandpa, he was a character =)
18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST? what is the what???
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Black boots
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Chex Mix Choc Chunk Bar 120 calories! lol
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The radio and office chatter ..
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Navy Blue =)
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Shampoo - love it! I'm a freak, i know!
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
A Customer - i'm working =)
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Beach House!!!! Gotta get my tan on =)
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Baseball - but only if i'm at the actual game, on tv its boring!!
27. HAIR COLOR? Dark Brown
28. EYE COLOR? BROWN
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yes I do!
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Fajitas
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings - scary movies now days are too gory for me!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Grown Ups - on Netflix
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Tan Argile (sp??) sweater
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer - but Fall is my favorite!
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Depends on who is handing them out =) lol
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Fresh baked chocolate chip cookie
37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
Cardio - I am lovin' the running
38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer!
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Don't read much ...
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A Dell logo
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
My kids laughing :)
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Before my time!!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Cancun
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
ummmmm not that i can think of ...
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
In a hospital??..
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
In a house with my husband and my boys - my favorite place to be!
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE? Tan siding
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Black
50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
Its ok ... but these questions were kind of lame =)
And here is a somewhat current pic of me so you can see who you are reading about =)
So that is a little bit about me!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Day 22 ... Weigh In #3
Today is day 22 and weigh in #3 - and it was a good weigh in, woot woot ... finally broke the 189.5 number, thought that wasn't going to happen after being stuck there for 2 weeks! But I was happy to step on the scale and see 186.5 - 3 lbs down baby ... gotta love that. I am still pluggin away - doing awesome with the exercise, running my butt off, literally =) ... I know I have only lost 7 lbs but already my pants are starting to feel more loose and I am noticing my "momma pouch" gettin' smaller =) ... this all makes me SMILE!! It is nice to see your hard work pay off - now if the scale would just move a little faster I would be even more happy, lol - but I will take what I can get. I am finding it easier to avoid temptations and to just be mindful of what I am eating and not just eating just because I am bored ... I finally feel like I am starting to gain some control over food and it feels great! I am now eating to live and not living to eat!! =) and its a great feeling. I am so ready for this weather to change and give us some warmer days so we can be outside, being cooped up leads to boredom eating and I have had to fight that a lot lately! But I really find myself really thinking about things before I eat them now - like is this stupid little candy bar really worth 250 calories! What else could I have for that amount?? - a lot - and something a lot better for me as well, and you know what that is a very unsatisfying 250 calories - I will feel bad after I eat it and it will not satisfy my hunger whatsoever ... So the big question before eating something I know isn't the best choice is - Is it worth it?!?! is it worth not seeing the scale move, is it worth running 15 mins on the treadmill and huffing and puffing and sweating it out, is it worth the guilt ...
Things are changing and I am liking the changes =)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Day 18 ... I think???
Wow - haven't blogged in almost a week ... not good, I really wanted to blog daily and keep track of my "journey" so I can look back - so I need to get back to this! Things have been going well, I am still exercising daily - my EA Active game came yesterday and I really like it - i set the program all up and then realized I had made Wed a rest day so I did a "mini" workout to get a feel for the "game" ... it was very cool but I am anxious to do a full workout tonight and see just how hard it is - I chose the medium level - it has easy, medium or advanced ... so we'll see how it goes - I made it through the mini workout ok but I was sweating by the time I was done!
I've been doing good with running also - I can almost run 2 miles - getting so close but I can't figure out why my shins are burning so badly ... its like I start out ok and then about 5 mins in my shins are burning so bad I have to stop sometimes and stretch my leg out. If I could get over the leg burning I would be doing great because breathing wise I am doing so good, its just my legs bothering me. I burn 400 calories every time I run which is nice - so I think combining running and this EA Active I could burn quite a few calories.
I told the husband its weird that I am actually starting to enjoy exercise - i don't have to drag myself to do it, I know it needs to be done and I want to do it - I want to get healthy - I want to sweat! =)
Unfortunately I am not seeing the results I would like to see on the scale. I am stuck at 189 ... been there for the last 2 weeks now. It is also that T.O.M - so I am *hoping* that next week I see a significant loss .. I have been doing great with logging my calories and staying within my range - i think there was one day I went a little bit over but other than that i've been doing good. The only thing I would like to improve on is to eat more natural foods and less processed stuff. Maybe cut back on the carbs a bit - I still find myself craving those a lot. But I have cut my portions way back, I am measuring my foods and I have not been eating after 7:00 ... drinking tons of water ... have cut my soda WAAAAAY back - I drink about 1 a day now before i was drinking up to 4 or 5 a day!!! crazy! The goal is to completely get rid of it but so far its been a no go with that one.
I am not giving up - I know this is a lifestyle change and if I am just patient the weight will start coming off ... I have already changed so many things ... I am in this for the long haul!
I've been doing good with running also - I can almost run 2 miles - getting so close but I can't figure out why my shins are burning so badly ... its like I start out ok and then about 5 mins in my shins are burning so bad I have to stop sometimes and stretch my leg out. If I could get over the leg burning I would be doing great because breathing wise I am doing so good, its just my legs bothering me. I burn 400 calories every time I run which is nice - so I think combining running and this EA Active I could burn quite a few calories.
I told the husband its weird that I am actually starting to enjoy exercise - i don't have to drag myself to do it, I know it needs to be done and I want to do it - I want to get healthy - I want to sweat! =)
Unfortunately I am not seeing the results I would like to see on the scale. I am stuck at 189 ... been there for the last 2 weeks now. It is also that T.O.M - so I am *hoping* that next week I see a significant loss .. I have been doing great with logging my calories and staying within my range - i think there was one day I went a little bit over but other than that i've been doing good. The only thing I would like to improve on is to eat more natural foods and less processed stuff. Maybe cut back on the carbs a bit - I still find myself craving those a lot. But I have cut my portions way back, I am measuring my foods and I have not been eating after 7:00 ... drinking tons of water ... have cut my soda WAAAAAY back - I drink about 1 a day now before i was drinking up to 4 or 5 a day!!! crazy! The goal is to completely get rid of it but so far its been a no go with that one.
I am not giving up - I know this is a lifestyle change and if I am just patient the weight will start coming off ... I have already changed so many things ... I am in this for the long haul!
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