Wake Up Call

I finally got the call from my doctor yesterday saying the mole came back as being benign! No cancer!! =) I prayed long and hard to hear those words and I know God had his hand in the whole thing.

The doctor told me this was a "wake up call" ... telling me to be more careful, no more tanning beds, put on sunscreen, etc.  But I am going to take this as more of just a wake up call for my skin. This is my wake up call to get healthy and to start taking care of myself! The thought of the possibility of having cancer put a very real fear in me. I am a worrier - when I hear of a bad situation my mind tends to go to the worst possible scenerio, it's just how my mind works. So thinking of having cancer and then just thinking of being sick and what all that entails really scared me. I looked at my two boys and thought they need their momma, they need me to be healthy! I had that mole for well over a year but always thought, oh it's no big deal, I will deal with it later ... My body deserves better than that. We only have one body and the way we treat it can determine how long we have it!

I think we always think of the more "dangerous" things when it comes to being healthy. Smoking, drinking, drugs ... often times not thinking about how all the junk we eat is affecting our bodies. Yeah maybe you don't smoke but putting junk into your body and living a sedentary life could give you the same results - death! I am being a little dramatic, but it's the truth - I can't stress enough how I don't want to just fit into a size 8 pants but I want to be HEALTHY!!

All this being said, I have been eating horribly the past few weeks. I've just been down in the dumps and stressed and I let it get the best of me. We have been planning this Disney trip and there have been a lot of bumps in the road but I think we finally have it all figured out and we will be leaving in just a few short days. I am eager to go, I know it will be a good time. I have decided I am not going to stress over what I am eating while I am there, it will be nearly impossible to calculate calories and all that. I will be doing a ton of walking. So I am just going to enjoy myself.  When I get back, I plan on doing a complete overhaul on my diet and exercising. I am going to talk to my husband about it and see if I can get him on board too. He has been really down about his weight lately too. We both bought new clothes for the trip and it's just depressing buying clothes when you're overweight - we both know what we need to do.

So I don't know how much I will be blogging in the next 2 weeks or so but when I get back from Disney I will have tons of pics to share and I will be ready to get my healthy lifestyle back on track and be able to share with all of you the changes and transformation we make in our lives, to make it a healthier one!!

Thank you for all your prayers and well wishes! So glad God answers prayers and I was given a good report =)

Let's Hope for The Best ...

I had my mole scan today - the mole that scared me was removed. The doctor didn't like the way it looked but is being very optomistic and saying "lets hope for the best" ... It will get biopsied and I will get the results Monday or Tuesday.  When I got to my car, I cried. The though of anything being wrong scares me to death. I am glad the mole is gone but I am still scared of "the worst" ... All I can do now is wait. I got a good cry out and now I am just thinking positive thoughts. Just going to take the next few days and relax and TRY not to think about it =)

Wanted to share this video with you - I am sure if you are on facebook you have seen it or even on another blog. This is so inspirational in so many ways - when he takes off running I about burst into tears. If this doesn't move you in some kind of way, there is something wrong with you. Watch and be inspired!

It's Not About The Skinny Jeans

I am going to talk about this until I am no longer worried about it - which could be awhile - I apologize now for the broken record I have turned into.

So the thought of possibly having something "wrong" (the whole skin cancer thing) has me thinking about what I really want in my life. My blog is called - Momma On a Mission to Be HEALTHY. Am I really doing all that I can do to be healthy? I would be lying if I said that one of my main goals in losing weight isn't to fit into smaller clothes and too "look" better. But when it boils down to it - that is not what this mission is all about. This mission is about getting healthy.

So fitting into a pair of these, doesn't really matter much any more.

Both of my parents are overweight. My dad is pre-diabetic and falls alseep if he sits for longer than 5 minutes. My mother has chronic back problems. They both suffer from high blood pressure. I truly believe a lot of their health issues could be solved if they just made healthier choices, lost weight and became more active. I see my mom struggling with her medication and fighting with her insurance to get the medication she needs to keep her blood pressure in check and also have to mention the cost of this medicine is through the roof. She is currently not on any meds because she needs a certain kind and her insurance company doesn't want to provide it, so she could basically have a stroke while she is waiting to get the right medication.

I do not want to live my life that way. I do not want to have to rely on medications to live. Especially if it can be prevented by something as simple as just living a healthy life and taking care of my body.  I do not want to have to worry about any of these things because of my weight. I do not want to die from something, I COULD of prevented!

So while looking cute in those skinny jeans would be nice, it's not about that, it's about being here for these two - because they need their Momma!

A lady I work with once said - Life is too short and food is too good, I am going to eat what I want while I can enjoy it. Truth is, if you ate foods that were good for you, you could enjoy them a lot longer! She has 4 kids, do you think that cheesecake is worth more time spent with her kids?? I think not.

Cherish Every Moment

First, I want to apologize to all of you reading this blog for the "weight loss" aspect of it. My last few posts haven't been much about weight loss and honestly losing weight hasn't been on my mind so much in the last few weeks. I am still constantly working on trying to live a healthier life but sometimes other things happen and our priorities change.

I'm not sure why, but God has really laid it on my heart lately to see the bigger picture in life. He has shown this to me in more ways than one. I'm not sure how to word this but I am really hoping he is not preparing me for something that is going to happen in my life but possibly preparing me to help someone or to just simply open my eyes and realize that I need to live my life better.

Today I went to a blog that I read daily Mama Laughlin, and she posted about a little boy named Grayson, who has Leukemia. His mom talks about his story and their fight to make Grayson better. It is one of those stories that makes you want to grab your babies and never let go. Definitely a story that shows that Bigger Picture that I was talking about before. If you have time, please read his story and say a prayer for him and his family as he fights this hard battle. Here is a link directly to his story.

Another thing that happened recently is we bought our boys bunk beds off of Craigslist - I think I may have talked about this in another post as well. When we went to pick up the bunk beds the mother and father were outside with there 15 year old son who had a severe case of Autism - he is unable to speak and gets very frustrated because of it. The mother told us the story of how she knew something was wrong with him at 18 months, even when doctor's told her she was just comparing him to her older son and to just give it time. One of her statements was - Enjoy your little boys because you never know. She said that her son is a full time job but she wouldn't trade it for anything. Just another way God was showing me to count my blessings.

I volunteered over the weekend for a March of Dimes walk. What I did wasn't a huge thing, I collected ballots at the end of the walk. But just being there and seeing all those children who have overcome so much. I saw signs in memory of babies who lost their fight. Signs of "miracle babies" who are now striving and are healthy. I saw children in wheel chairs who have life long disabilities due to being born prematurely. Another reminder from God for me to appreciate the 2 beautiful healthy children he has blessed me with.

So you see God has really laid it on my heart lately to not get too caught up in this CRAZY world and forget all the blessings he has given me and my family. It is so easy to get wrapped up in the GO GO GO pace of this world and to forget what is truly important. We all want more, bigger, better things. We should be happy with what we are given and be willing to help those who are not as fortunate as ourselves.

I do not know why God has given me this burden, maybe it is to reach someone who reads this blog, or maybe he has something greater in store for me. I just want to be sensetive to his calling and be led in the right direction. This post has reminded me of a song I used to sing in church.

Lead me Lord, I will follow.
Lead me Lord, I will go.
You have called me, I will answer.
Lead me Lord, I will go.


Cherish every moment!